误会

眼睛明明想给微笑，
一眨眼却挤出了汗。
这一双手明明握住了什么，
一握紧却烟消云散。

如果耳朵听过答案，
为何嘴巴说不出来。
如果天空真的想分享蔚蓝，
为何我在看却像与我无关？

像一颗星以为战胜黑暗，
像一阵风以为站在云端，
就像你我之间那些深的浅的期待，
也许全都是误会。

如果胸口有过温暖，
为何心事从没灿烂？
如果大海真的有那么勇敢，
为何海浪却迟迟靠不了岸？

像一颗星以为战胜黑暗，
像一阵风以为站在云端，
就像你我之间那些深的浅的期待，
也许全都是误会。

像一颗星以为战胜黑暗，
像一阵风以为站在云端，
像只许过愿望后忘了吹熄的蜡烛，
以为梦还没做完。

也许阳光没想过要慷慨，
也许雨水只为自己灌溉。
就像你我之间那么精彩的遗憾，
也许全都是误会。

adapted from 飞轮海-- 误会

September

September is the time when things start to wind down...You can feel all the cool breeze that is kissing you. But NO! Before we get to enjoy the annual autumn breeze,the lurking fear presents itself.

You know, everytime when i tell someone that I want to acheive this or acheive that..I always end up not acheiving that thing. So seriously, sometimes I choose to remain silent about my wishes.

Borrowed two books from the public library today. Finished a english novel so far its title was hallowmere. It was a fantasy. Plan to read two more. "My brother's keeper" and "storyteller".

Attending a wedding this weekend...getting sick and tired of having to attend these kinds of adult functions. Haiz...In a foul mood now, dont talk me least i offend you.

when you dont know how to proceed, ASAP (always say a prayer)

Thank You Jesus, I can only rely on you now.

Can I say I'm disappointed in you? I dont know how or why but maybe it is my fault that things are happening this way between us...You seem to be overpowering me.
And there is an asshole(Dont want mention name, but i"m sure my CLOSE friends will know who I'm refering to) who is going about trying to sow discord my friends and I. Just what did I do to make you hate me so much that you want to try and DESTROY all my friendships? What's wrong with you?? Are you psyco or something...seriously, I think you need a psychologist!!!

RED ALert!! Watch out

Lines

When lines are drawn between you and me, the line between us begin to stretch and break... No, wait, maybe the line cant even stretch...Maybe we should just let go off the line and never try to pick it up again. The same goes for whatever is happening around me. I find no point in giving in to one person just because he or she is more dominant, or maybe he/she treatens you with friendship. There is absolutely NO point if you are the only party giving in to the other end of the line.

Quote form PJH; " Hey, know what...my 良心是清白的！" Dont put all the blame on the other party just because you are not happy with whatever is happening around you. that was one of the painful lessons i learnt when I was in scondary one. I advise all who tries to follow this path to leave STRAIGHT away...

Considerations

Waves of feelings of past events came crashing as i began this post. Maybe i might stop halfway though cause somethings are best left not expressed. How can you explain what i feel when i cant even put forth what i felt. Unless you see whats in my eyes, you'll never have guessed what is hidden beneath the smiley face. I wouldnt say it is something tragic or something sad. I have no words to put it forth to the audience that are watching me perform on stage. Life is but just a stage where the beginnning of the play gets everyone all excited to see what is coming out. But, however, when they realise that all they are going to see is the stage collasping under the events that are happening on top, they either leave to help or scorn at the designers who built the damaged stage.

直觉。Can it ever be trusted or do we humans always need logic to explain certain things? Sometimes i really feel that light was on me. But the next moment that i decided to turn away, the light disappeared as well. Light, did you really ever exist or was it all a part of my imagination?? Maybe not, i guessed light would rather shine on the nucleus rather than a 自暴自弃 的 lysosome. 但我心里却非常地想问你， 你是否回来过？或许有吧，但你的光射却在 eclispe 的时候给盖住了。灭绝了我们相见的所有机会。

Whoa, haha!

I was trying my hand at writing some chinese phrases. Haiz, sadly, i could only come up with those above. All those super lousy and common phrases that can be found anywhere. People will just state i was just paraphrasing. Oops, i just recall i have a chinese assignment that require me to write a story. Sharks!

“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.”
¬Maria Robinson

Sarcasm

You were a beautiful sunset. However the more i took a look at you hanging in the sky, the more blinded my eyes became. Your brightness was causing harm unto me. Sadly, i must say it must have been my fault for having been so stupid to take even a peek at you in the first pplace, which caused my own plight. Maybe I should apologise, maybe i should not.

Very disappointed with my MYE results this time especially for my EMaths. How is it possible that i was not able to achieve an A1 when everyone else did? It's an extremely disappointing thing. I guessi just have to blame myself for not putting in enough effort to Emaths. But actually i cant say that as well. I will just say that i wasnt able to understand Chapter 5 well enough. What a failure!! Si many people are achieving an aggregate of A2 for every subject. I will just have to accpet the fact that i wont be in the top 20 positions in class for once.

Well it may seem to some that i'm bragging here but seriously i place great importance on my studies so the results obtained tis time was really a disappointment. Not for all but really...

Arh, never mind. Too many things have been happening recently. I hurt someone accidentally and apparantly she's quite mad with me now. Let's just hope she would accpet my apology and her anger would "recede". Sorry.


An apology is the superglue of life. It can repair just about anything. ~Lynn Johnston

is it true??

Branched

Autumn, it is a time of

Withered leaves falling to the ground.

Every butterfly tried attracting the attention of the tree

Hoping that the tree would bloom again just for them.

They flutter their beautiful wings but to no avail.

The twigs lying on the ground envied the tree,

But they were just not able to produce flowers like what the tree can do.

Twigs try to attach themselves with the tree but they always fail to.

Birds flying in the air wants to reach the clouds in the sky.

Sadly, they never could.

Just like how hell can never be heaven.

You know the feeling of being blessed.

You have a image of how you think you would be blessed.

But have you ever thought that MAYBE when you acheived that image, you would still not be happy?

MAYBE things would have been better if you left it status quo??

Gems can never be together with phosphoric acid as they just dont match.

Gems may think that it would be good to be able to "beautify" themselves with some sprinkles of some glittering acid, although knowing it might destroy themselves.

The great earnest of the gems may never be even made known to phosphoric acid, and phosphoric acid might take notice of the gems just because they find them of weird shapes??

Sadly, phosphoric acid's curiousity will just fade off if there's no interaction between gems and phosphoric.

Maybe it would be the same with gems as well, the thought of beautifying themselves with phosphoric acid would go away and they might think of new ways to "beautify" itself?

Should gems shine the brightest so that phosphoric acid would be notice them and be attracted by their beauty??

No one knows.

Achievment

Ok...i'm here to boast about how happy I feel about how much time I took to run 2.4km. I dont know how long I took but i'm super happy that i know My timing have improved from last time. But....

Firstly, I want to thank the group which have been cheering me on for every round i ran. They are namely

1) Luo SiWei
2) Mo YuJiao
3) Jermaine Teo
4) Liew Tsae Woei or better known as frog....
5) Sim Keng Ying for running beside me!

Sorry to the people who cheered for me but your names are not here. I took off my specs when I was running so I couldnt really see who was cheering me on. I used my ears instead of my eyes. Eveyday I thank God for giving me a perfect and healthy body. Thank God once again!

Yay! I ran faster than LEON!!! Haha, leon, I was able to run faster than you this time! Yipee! I sprinted through the last 1/4 lap. I almost wanted to give up when i was sprinting towards the finishing line while but all thanks to my cheerleading squad, i didn't and therefore i perserved. I felt like there was no weight on my feet when i was sprinting, like as though i was lifted in the air. I wonder if that is the reason why Ah Niab chose to sprint rather than to jog.But he goon cause he ran one extra round, maybe he did it on purpose though. Just to SHOW OFF. Sianzz, next week is 5-item test. I dont like the 5-item tests. Completing the 2.4km run is more fun. Sad, Sky wasnt able to complete the run due to her feeling giddy halfway through. Sad, Giap wasnt able to pass(I think) as well. So both of them would have to take the re-test during PE lesson tomorrow.

After the run, Faustine, me and monkey went to buy bubble tea. Both of their bubble tea have got bubbles but my doesnt. If you dont know what is meant by no bubbles, it means no pearl. It was so refreshing. Maybe it's because it's drank right after i was "dehydrated". Now i'm drinking milk!! Haha!!

Good job for all those who completed the run. Jiayous for those who couldnt finish and those who werent able to make it!! :)

new look

This week is going to be so hectic. What's with all the common test coming up and the fear of not being able to finish revising in time. So glad that CCA is cancelled although it was originally planned to occur. Sad thing is now i am so not motivated to attend CCA although i was so happy to attend CCA eveytime. Some stupid__________ so bias that i really feel like smacking that person. Everytime see her during CCA makes me feel like a idoit like why did I practice so hard just to get a scolding from ______. Not talking about my teachers-in-charge of my CCA of course! The teachers-in-charge are nice people.

Council's going on quite ok for me, but i have a difficulty in executing my role involving block patrol. Does anyone know that it is a very bad feeling to chase someone out of their class when they are doing nothing else exept homework?? Ok, i would tell those who are eating in class to get out nicely but what's wrong with doing homework at recess time and what's wrong in prefering to stay in class?? I MUST propose to the school to allow my cohort to stay in class to do our assignments. Not that it would make any effect if i was the only one who feedbacked though.

Guess somebody doesnt have a good impression of me now. I was able to tell that (let's name the person "A") A had a good impression of me initially, but now,I can feel A's impression of me has changed. Maybe it's because i lied. Well, i must admit i was wrong but who would prefer to get punished when they could just get out of trouble when they lied. Seriously, it's easy to say that it is wrong to lie, but when you are stuck in a situation and only lying can get you out, it's the natural humans' instinct to lie. Well, maybe some people wouldnt lie and that would really be a role model for me. As Christians, God said that we should not lie. So, i guess to be able to glorify his name, i will try not to go against what is right so that i would not be embarrasing God.

Well, i guess that's all for now and i hope you people like my new blog skin. Haha!! Hope that the MYEs would be over soon as well. Arrgh! My stomach is growling, got to go get some food. Bye!

Your smile made a difference
It is a rare gem.

apologise

Well, it's my first day being a councillor and i just found out that mprning duties could be quite mundane. Luckily for me though, i was assigned to a lower sec class and it's 2E3 so yea...i think that's ok. The people there are quite cooperative. The unfair thing is ah niab got lesser duties than me.... ;( But maybe i should not be grumbling cause i should be doing the best of what i can do as i am now assigned a task.

Dont know why but i feel somebody is treating me very coldly lately. Well i guess i did something really offensive and bad. I sincerely apologise to that person. Let's just hope the person is reading this post.

Oh yes, and thanks Sky for helping me search for my Guzheng stuff. You know when you found it, I thanked my teacher first coz i would have thanked you later even if my teacher didnt tell me to. Thanking you after my teacher commented seems like i'm thanking you just because my teacher said i should have done so. Let me clarify one thing, when i say thank you i really meant it.

It may not be so if i say sorry though. From my writing and tone you would be able to tell of i was saying sorry sincerely or not. In my above apology, i really meant to say sorry to that person. However, there are circumstances whereby you are forced to say sorry. That's because if you dont say "sorry", you might suffer dire consequences. I guess i'm not the only person who experiences this kind of conditions, wherby you are FORCED to say sorry when you are actually not in the wrong. Well, that's life. Say it, and things go on as per normal again.

Class timetable may change again. Let's just hope we have no change of teachers. I am alright with all of our teachers now. And one word of advice to my si dui tou. If you want H to remain as your friend, dont treat her as you treatd me when we were foes. Maybe you would like to change the kind of view you have on others who are stronger than you instead of imagining them as gof balls and you, the golfer.

scenery presents, scenery fades
life presents, life fades.

Just A Coincidence

Today is Wednesday!!! Yipee!! Whenever wednesday is here, it means that the weekends are coming!! Hip,hip, Hooreay!

Had quite a fun activity on today for CE lesson...
Alicia proposed to ms Lee about having a secret pal...
AND,,,


Ms Lee agreed to it...haha!
So the class proceeded on to choose their so called "fated" secret pal and I got _____________

Actually, Mss Lee cheat one lor,she purposely separated the girls and the guys....such that the girls get guy partners and the guys get girl partners...

But since there are more girls in the class as compared to guys, some of the girls got a secret pal of the same sex as well...Haha! But the class not stupid, some people changed the pal that they got with other people. I know one of my friends did...ooo, you cant escape my eyes!! I wonder who got my name!! Until now, i didnt hear anybody say that they got me...And I wonder when the identity of the secret pal is revealed, will my secret pal actually be the original person that got my name...


Fiona heard that the person who picked her name was --- Chan?? Haha, she was like "err..." when somebody told her about it. Asked Chan and Giap who they got but they dont wanna tell me...so not fun...BUt maybe it would be more fun this way...

I wonder who got Sky too...Was like sharing with some of my pals during breaktime and they were like "wah, sounds very fun lei".

Actually some people in class objected to having a secret pal. I was the "anything lor" people...I wonder if my secret pal is guy/girl and when would i receive the first note. HAAH!

Wah...like the whole blog post all talking about secret pal leh...Nvm lah, at least I updated.

Well, anyway, i think life so far is fun and arent i glad that today NO SSP!!!
During english lesson, hao jun, faus, leon and I were also like talking about random stuff...so fun, so fun...but the teacher was like quite displeased though...

Utmost apologies to my english teacher :)


my desire came true but why am i not happy?
is it a punsihment for being greedy?

ignored feelings...

Came home with Qian Hui today. We were on the MRT when she was bascically replying messages from Leon and Giap... She loves multi-tasking i realised, she was listening to me narrate what Leon wrote while she typed...Multi-tasking is bad for your health, my dear friend...I forgot to tell her that ;) Shall tell her tomorrow...

Had an english test on narrative writing today. If you want to know what i feel about narrative writing, i shall tell you...Honestly, i find narrative writing a waste of time. I would rather write expository essays...You arent going to write stories when you grow up unless you become an anuthor. For me, with no imagination and CREATIVE writing skills and all, i find narrative writing results a disppointment for me everytime. Unlike Leon and Chan, both of whom can write very well. Leon's stories are quite gruesome at times though! ;)

Relaxing myself by listening to some music now, although i'm not feeling stressed. Had consective subject lessons for today. 1hr 40 mins can be quite torturous when you just listening to a teacher explaining on one particular subject. Mouth-talked to Leon a few times during those lessons...haha...a few people almost fell asleep but forced themselves to stay awake.

I wonder how my grades are for e-maths. Someone in my class scored full marks and there are failures for the test too, judging by the tone of my maths teacher. Congrats to the person who got full marks. I dont know why but i feel that it aint particularly only the scholars who will be able to do well for the tests. The fact that we are able to study in the same class as them means we will not be that bad off, isnt it??

passionate eyes meeting with cold,stone eyes
when did you learn that?

Active

Today is a monday...Ms Alicia Ng showed my class a cartoon about snoopy thorughout the 5 days. Monday is the "dont talk to me day" and there was snoopy growling, HAHA! I dont know why i'm starting to find physics interesting. And the surprising thing is i find English BORING!!! Which never occured in the past before...

Read up Sky's blog which states her daily activities, with quite a few post about the things she does with Giap. Hey Sky, i can vouch for you that you dont like Giap, but you like him as a friend. HAHA! Yap!!! ;) Know something?? I'm super honoured that you mentioned me every post of yours can?? Haha!!

Got the piano score "river flows in you" from Faustine today. This was the song that I heard one of my other classmate play. Ultra uber nice...I am so thankful i know how to play muscial instruments at times because they seriously help me to relax...apart from doing exercise of course...AND SKY!!! I dont FORCE myself to go gym...i ENCOURAGE myself...Haha!!! ;)

Maybe i can consider myself as having slightly prepared for the upcoming tests?? I am so happy today,cause i've acheived another thing...i scored quite well for the chinese stuff so far...HAha :) (trying to make ____ jealous)

Initially, i was feeling so brain dead in the morning that i couldnt make out the concepts for accelaration...however, after my brain "risen" from the daed, i was somehow able to understand...one point i dont understand though, and i plan to ask ms Ng tomorrow...asked Leon but he couldnt answer though he should be a pro in Physics...

The people in my class are seriosly very hardworking, and CLEVER!! i find it a motivation for myself to keep pace with my classmates...But sometimes i find it quite difficult to just do the same monotonus thing everyday....Faustine told me something about my appearance today...which I only partly agree though...Shant write it here...it's our secret!

To end off, here's a quote on success,
"Success seems to be a largely a matter of hanging on after others have let go"

Lazy, but yearning

Hi people, i'm back...

Thanks my dear friends for giving me all the encouragement...I really am thankful for having you guys as my friends...and anyway...SKY!!!! I exercise not to lose weight!!! HAHA!! it's to get away the crappy feelings that exist in me...Went to gym today...I am so happy that i managed to complete 2.4 in 15 minustes again today... BUt by the time i was done...i was panting like a dog and was looking so unglam,...HAHA

I used the song "river flows in you" as my blog's music as it simply is melodious...i remebered the first time i heard it...

It was played by a friend of mine...He played it so fluently and nicely that i was so touched by his playing...ok, maybe not touched but absorbed into his playing. I bet my other friends would agree if they were there to listen as well...It occupied the whole of my mind when it was played... I guess i have a lot to learn from the pianist...Haha!!

slacking today...have not started revision for the whole block of test yet...I am so dead this time...I have to burn the midhinght oil this time...one thing that i hate to do the most but no choice since i want to do well...

so there..

forgive me for being rude
i know you will...cause you are my friend

pissed

I don't know how i can be irritated by people that i am once fascinated at. What a nincompoop!!!

Heard A friend play a piano today...It was simply melodious. Some how, I dont understand how come I just cant seem to play that well. Not enough hard work...maybe,but I think it's because i dont have that burning passion to learn a piece.

Going back to the topic on irritating people, it irks me to see people who sashay into classes when they are late. Its as if the whole world belongs to them. what THE ...

I dislike people who are bias/discrimnate people as well...But to be rational,humans have feelings, I cant be the one who can force those feelings out of those people. I cant allow myself not to dislike poeple as well, cause i am also a human...

I realised that sometimes i can be very irritating to people around me.. I try to be less irritating but it never works when i am irritated by the same people around me. Got one whole block of tests next week...dont feel like preaparing for it, not feeling very good/pleased now...Maybe i should go do some intense exercise to get rid of those crappy feelings...

It always helps...